*I was shaking. That in itself wasn’t new, my encounters
with Vishous had always left me trembling and breathless in his arms. I’d wake
up in much the same way, shivering violently as the memory of your touch left
me and I was forced back into a harsh reality where we maintained the façade of
being no more than friends. But not
here. Here I was yours, whether we’d admit it or not. Maybe it was only wishful
thinking, the dozens of times you’d infiltrated my dreams over the weeks to
possess my body had left me raw, the tender fibers of my emotions bared and
unraveling with each passing night. Breathing a low moan, I struggled to
pinpoint the change. This time was different, our bodies holding a
heartbreaking yearning as you moved over me, diamond eyes dimmed in an unspoken
resolution even as you pushed and retreated, every stroke slower than the last
as if the thought of the moment ending caused you pain. I watched the changes
in your face, daring to hope that you’d finally seen that I was more than a
bedmate and that was what left you haunted, fighting to come to terms with your
love.*
Vishous
- It was the greatest mistake and my greatest reward to come
back night after night to visit you in the other world. Where nothing mattered
and we were together as only we could be, the place where I could get closer to
you without fear of what might happen. Nobody knew and no one had to know about
the bittersweet encounter we had in the close confines of the theater. Night
after night we writhed and reached that otherworld release through ghosts of
bodies that touched us in some way. We had gotten close too soon and too soon
I've felt the intimacy of a lover's touch without the actual touch. Deep within
me I had noticed the change but never truly acknowledge it until the fucking
crumbs of the honorable male in me broke through seeing what I had for what it
is... Fuck... this was it, I knew you noticed it. The moment thick with the
longing of the last touch, of one last kiss... On the couch, I moved closer to
you, pulling you into my side to feel the warmth of your body as the dream us
moved together as one in... well what could only be described as lovemaking.
The sadness in my eyes had to drift through even in the dream. Resolve settling
in with the impending release. Damn, why did I have to find a conscience now?-
Jodi
*I arched into you as the orgasm rolls through me like
thunder, my hands finding your shoulders to pull me into your chest, my hips
rocking into your thrusts drawing out the moment as long as I can…needing
this…needing you…willing to do anything to keep you here with me, even if I had
to sleep forever. Watching your face, your gaze darkened with something I
couldn’t define but needing to ease you somehow, to tell you everything would
be alright as I had always done.* Vishous… I… *I tugged you down to take your
lips before I could finish what I’d found myself wanting to say since the night
you’d walked away in the club. …love you… ended the thought but instead I
whimpered into the kiss, letting the storm of pleasure take me where it would.
As long as I was in your arms, I no longer cared where that was*
Vishous
- The orgasm rocked us both in the dream and out here on the
leather couch of this big room. Never had I thought this place could bring so
many scary emotions and I would never look at it the same way ever again. Your
body blindingly reached for mine and as I knew this was the last time I would
allow such closeness with you or with anyone I pulled you in closer still to
capture your lips in a passionate kiss that would someone brand your body as much
as I had your mind. Not for the first time I wondered if I should use my magic
and erase this encounter. I kissed to taste you for the longest of time before
I finally... reluctantly pulled back. The look in my eyes said what I could
not, would not admit this to you. The arrangements would be made as soon as I
stepped out of this room. I feared I would not be able to hold myself back from
bonding with a female that was not rightfully mine. I whispered reverently- My
pet... -my leelan, fuck the word burned in my mouth and demanded I gave in-
Jodi
*Eyes squeezed shut, insisting I stay in this world with
you, my fingers curling into your shirt as your mouth found mine again, the
hungry edge to your kiss stirring something in me, an uneasiness that settled into
the pit of my stomach and ran in my veins like ice. Panting as I slipped back
into the vision, looking up at the warrior who’d so thoroughly loved me with a
tenderness none outside of myself would have thought him capable of, panic
spearing my heart to see his body grow dim above me* Vishous?
Vishous
- I took a moment to run my hand over your features as if to
memorize with a soft touch what would never be mine. However, these memories
would be mine and yours to share in a secret way that was meant for just us. My
lips curled into a sad smile, this was it. Instead of words I just filled your
mind with visions of us. Visions that would remain just that. Visions, figments
of our imagination- Always, pet, never forget that -with that I pushed more of
my gift in to knock you back into the dream so I could slip away, leaving you in the peace I would never have-
Jodi
*Clawing my way through the fog enveloping me, my eyes flew
open to find myself alone on the sofa, the last moments of Casablanca playing
on the giant screen glowing in the background. I blinked to focus, and lifted a
hand to wipe at my cheeks, pulling back to look at the droplets glistening on
my fingertips. I looked around frantically for you, dread taking hold of me as
I leapt to my feet and ran out of the theater, singularly ignoring the
wide-eyed doggen that witnessed my flight. Brothers be damned I call out your
name, frantically searching the library and finally the kitchen with no sign of
you left behind. Gone. Vishous was gone. I felt hollow, now understanding what
his crystal gaze had been trying to tell me. A final goodbye. I gripped my
shirt over my chest as if to keep my heart from shattering with the impact of
your absence and there alone in the kitchen, I pulled as much of your fading
scent into my lungs as I could, sank to my knees and sobbed*
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